web design confuses me, and therefore makes me angry.

in my life, will i try every possible thing and hate it?


really, i don't think the whole web design thing is for me. another career plan foiled.


we are headed into major recession says (e:hodown). i need to stop taking forever, and just grow up damnit.

right now, the stars are pointing me towards special education...


i think i could get a bachelors in a few years, but the whole europe plan will be foiled. i may have to settle for just a month or two of backpacking, and then come back and buckle down. it seems like such a cake career, and one i think i will really love... i really think i just hate hate hate school, unless it is art, and at is pointless for school because i don't need 4 yrs and 80,000 worth of debt to be poor and talented, i have that now.

here is a list of people i wish to visit me in the next 5 months:

(e:hodown), and she is coming in less than two weeks!

a divine intervention

(e:mike)

(e:pmt), no animals! and i will cook for you!

(e:brit), but no british national anthem

(e:tina), yea right

i keep wondering, will i be one of those people who wanders back to blo after a short stint elsewhere? its so expensive here for everything, and so much driving, and aside from my family, and the weather, i don't like it so much.

i mean, the weather part makes a huge huge difference, but it really is so expensive, and i am sick of seeing all of the stupid rich people. with money thats seems to just fall from the sky and their rediculously extravagant lifestyles. how are all these people so rich? all they talk about i money, and that seems to be all that anyone cares about here.

so, in short, i really miss blo, but we are having a bad weather spell here, and its not even that bad and its majorly depressing, so i don't think i can come back, because i hate being cold more than anything else, and i am cold right now. so, ill stay here for a bit. or at least until we run out of water, which could be soon.

im going to go see granny now, she always makes me feel better!